laid it all out

The other day I let things flow. I told B about my unhappiness how it is creeping back. How spending money and eating a cookie are a quick fix. I asked him to change my paypal pass word. So I couldn't get that quick fix by buying my boys cute fluff or wool.
My depression has shown its ugly head again but different this time. I have told two people that its time to change. They will hold me accountable and make sure I fallow threw . I know things will be better there is no shame in seeing someone or taking meds. I wish more people would be open with this issue .

once again

My life is up in the air. I'm not happy being a stay at home mom. Things are just not great or what I want. I need to figure out where am going if that means work or school. I need to get out of the house and talk to adults. My children are suffering because of my unhappiness. So far I haven't found any mom that understand me. They all love being stay at home mom's with spotless clean houses.